Week 22 – Once again, a bit late! Sorry!

Why is it that the last four or five weeks have been so difficult?

I have been spending a lot of time forgiving myself. There are doubtlessly things over which we have control. Some things in life are beyond our control, and lately that is how life feels to me. I keep on going, but my motivation is frequently called to question. I have come so far that to quit now would be ridiculous. But is continuing with frequent lapses in fidelity fair to the process?

“I will be master of my emotions.” Okay, my new affirmation:  I know I create my reality, so I am now choosing only joyous, harmonious, loving thoughts.” Thank you, Caroline Holder (RScP – Seaside Center for Spiritual Living) for my newest affirmation.

Onward!

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Week 20 – (Reading Week 21) In the Nick of Time I hope!

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I have been composing this post in my head for the past couple of days, and I finally have the time to put it into words.

Once again last Sunday I went to church with my good friend Elizabeth. Those who know me know that attending church is not a usual thing for me. I must say, though, that I have really enjoyed this church. I have found that the focus of the sermons have been very much aligned with The Master Key. Creativity is actually the focus for the next 40 days. Instead of giving up something for 40 days, the idea is to create something each day for forty days. Some of the ideas for being creative are as simple as taking an alternative route to work. There are many references to “creating” in Part 21 of the Master Key: “…what we think is what is created…” (paragraph 3), “The creative energies of mind find no more difficulty in handling large situations, thank small ones.” (paragraph 7), “…if you do not like the pictures, destroy the negative and create new pictures…” (paragraph 14). I think you get the picture.

The guest artist at the service was Margaret Owens. She sang two songs, but one really resonated with me. It is called “Be Happy Anyway.” I really do encourage you to go to her website and listen to this song. I would love to hear what you think. Her site is www.margaretowens.com.

We are nearing the end of this Master Key journey. It really has been a roller coaster ride for me. Fortunately I keep getting reprieves from the lessons and the webinars for those times when I slip. Paragraph 18 of Week 21 says, “…If we do fail now and then, we should by no means lose hope, for the law is absolute and invincible and gives us credit for every effort and every success, even though our efforts and successes are perhaps intermittent.” Thank goodness.

I know that the sit is one of the most important parts of this process, but I really don’t enjoy it. Maybe it’s because where I sit is so uncomfortable. Are you thinking, “So change chairs, you silly person!” I can’t. I live with my elderly father who has dementia. Since fracturing a bone in his back in June, my father has slept on a lift-recliner chair in the living room. I have nowhere else to sit but on that old green chair with the dent in the seat in my room. I have tried sitting on a pillow, but it really is not a pleasant experience. Because he feels the need to converse with me if I am in his presence, I do the sit early in the morning before he wakes up. Enough said; I will manage.

My last thought in my ramblings for now is to share a quote that I heard this week. The person from whom I heard it suggested that it was from Einstein, but it turns out that the quote is, in fact, from my all-time favorite author, Mark Twain. I cannot believe that I have never heard it before. It goes like this: “The two most important days in your life are the day you are born and the day you find out why.” I am looking forward to that second day!

Week 19 – I Think!

I am sitting in the airport in Tampa, Florida, waiting to head to the gate for my flight home. I truly have been off the planet for a week. I did manage to get on to the webinar last Sunday and I was able to make one post to the Alliance on Friday. I have been without Internet access for almost this whole week, and it has been difficult to keep up under those circumstances. Am I forgiven. Heck, yes!

I think this week has been one of getting over living in the past. I returned to a place that I have loved since I was first there in 1964. The beach continues to be spectacular, but the heart was not entirely there. The best part was spending time with my best friend in the world, but I could spend time with her anywhere. I felt bad that the weather wasn’t better for her since she lives where winter is, but certain things, as I have been learning, are not within our control.

One “aha” moment of the week was the discovery of the power of that Mother Nature. Years ago, on this beach that I love, there was a house that someone was permitted to build which blocked the access to the beach on the other side. One had to walk into the water to get around it. Mother Nature has taken care of it. On my walk along the beach I kept looking for this house. I did find it, but it is now located about 100 yards from the water. There is a little “lake” in front, but the Gulf of Mexico is now a walk away from the concrete patio which used to have waves lapping up to it. Well done! This also demonstrates how nothing is constant except change!

Week 18 – But especially thank you, Trish!

Over the course of time since beginning on this Master Key journey, I have had my moments of self-doubt and negativity. I was feeling a pall coming over me for the past few weeks; courage and persistence were the Makeover characteristics I had selected and although I saw a few examples in others, I saw none in myself. The sits were becoming painful as some of the circumstances of life were blasting my thoughts; I could not shut them off. The week started off well enough; I was on track doing what I needed to do and then…the old blueprint won! I quit! I did absolutely nothing for a few days. I was feeling sorry for myself, I was mad that I was missing the webinar because of a football game, I just threw in the towel.

But wait! I’m still here. So here’s the deal. First of all, I got over the football problem. I’ll explain that one in a bit. I desperately emailed Paul, my guide, with a subject line “I need help!” He wrote back and said in words what my heart was saying, “…you have already come this far and become the person you always intended to be.” Then a quote came my way that said, “When thinking about life remember this: no amount of guilt can solve the past and no amount of anxiety can change the future.” Other little things just “happened.” Some of the negative thoughts that were seriously interrupting my sit were getting resolved without my input. And then…OMG! I listened to the recording of Super Bowl Sunday’s webinar. Trish was talking to me! I was, over this past week, exactly where Trish described herself as being about ten years ago. She helped to reinstate my belief and now I am back with a passion. My pity party is over. Thank you Trish, Paul, and everyone for putting me back where I not only need to be, but where I want to be. I AM HAPPY!!!

Here is the Super Bowl resolution. I was unable to be on the Week 18 webinar because as promised, I took Elizabeth to church. The focus of the sermon was “The Season of Peace.” Reverend Christian made reference to the Super Bowl and told a story that put it all into perspective for me. The story goes that this elderly lady was sitting at the Super Bowl in the perfect seat on the 50-yard line. The seat beside her was empty. A gentleman passing asked the lady if anyone was going to be sitting there. She said, “No.” The gentleman asked her why that was. She explained that she and her husband had been to every Super Bowl game since their marriage in 1974. She was alone now as her husband had passed away. The gentleman expressed his condolences and asked the lady if she could not have given his seat to a family member or friend. When her response was no, he asked her why that was. She explained, “They are all at his funeral.”

Laughter through tears – what a marvelous emotion!

Onward!

 

Week 17A – The only things we can control are our attitude and our actions!

(The title is just a quote that I enjoyed.)

This has been an interesting week. I participate in a Daily Mentoring Minute five days a week. This week’s mentoring aligned so well with the Master Key. Let me give you an example. Part of the Hero’s Journey focuses on was “dying,” letting the old die to usher in the new. One of my mentor’s topics was “Does the idea of death inspired you?” He suggests that the moment you are born, a fuse it lit. Every day, every hour, every minute, that fuse is burning down. No one knows how long our fuse is, but we do know it’s constantly burning down even as we sleep. It should instill a great sense of urgency to get the most out of every day. He says, “Stop putting off your wishes, your hopes, your dreams, your ambitions. You must have a DO IT NOW attitude and a decision-making mindset!” It’s a slightly different perspective from the Hero’s journey, but the outcome should be the same.

Another point was a quote about permission. It said, “Allow yourself to go and do it wrong. Don’t expect to always get it right. It will prevent you from doing anything.” A third related to what he called the “visual belief prism.” We can see the world as joyous, happy, and loving if that is how we choose to see it.

With no specific readings assigned this week, I really am not sure why I selected the weeks from the Master Key that I chose. I thumbed through the weeks and noticed that I had the most highlights on Week 4, so Week 4 was it. The read brought back memories from fourteen weeks ago. Back then I had actually quoted Haanel to an individual who, although he holds a higher position in the MLM business that I do, was actually accountable to me for an area in which I was experiencing more success. I pointed out to him that “…many men…have found to their sorrow that it is easier to control a kingdom than to control themselves.”

The read after that was Week 5. As I recall, it was because of this reading that I finally was able to really create my DMP. Until that point, I struggled with allowing myself to create for myself. It was the “aha” for me made me realize that I could not do for others until I did for myself.

There remain several days until the end of this week and the beginning of a new. I am feeling at peace right now!

Week 17 – Just a few thoughts (otherwise known as babbling!)

(I posted this last week, but it ended up in the wrong place. Oh, silly me!)

This week has flown by…then again it’s been a really long week!

For the first time in a long time, I attended “church” (Center) with the wife of the friend who passed away last week. The “sermon” for the week related to the basics of Science of the Mind, the book written in 1926 by Ernest Holmes. I did a little research to see if Holmes knew of or was influenced by Haanel, because much of what was being said was the Master Key. Other than being thinkers in the same decade, there appeared to be no direct link. I must say, however, the reverend was speaking to me. It was a condensed version of the Master Key. Fascinating!

I attended a funeral and celebration of life this week for another neighbor in the place where I live. (I am currently living in a senior community with my father who has dementia. Death is a fact of life in this community.) What was supposed to have been a celebration of his life was, instead, a sermon led by the minister who had insufficient time to say what he wanted to say at the actual funeral. There was no joy in the occasion until at the very end a slide show showing his life was played. Until then, there was no “feeling.” In hindsight, it really is very sad because Tony would not have enjoyed it!

I have been doing my best to keep up with my Master Key. I realize that this entry is a day later than I would like. One of my greatest struggles continues to be the “sit.” It’s not really the sitting, but I am really having difficulty keeping my mind from going a mile a minute. If anyone has any suggestions, I would greatly appreciate it.

The characteristic I chose for this week of the Franklin Makeover is “Courage.” I have, perhaps, found more courage in the blogs that I am reading than anywhere else, including in my own actions. This one is a toughie; I guess that other than in myself or in a blatant act of heroism, I am not sure how to see courage. The kindnesses of last week, though, keep coming, and I’m loving that!

Here now is the end of my rambling for this week.

Onward!

Master Key – Week 16

I have chosen to name these week’s blog Week 16, since this is what I am reading and this is, in fact, Week 16 of an incredible journey. (I say this because somehow I have “lost” a week or two. Obviously there was a method in my madness, but I have no idea today what that method might have been.) In some respects the time has flown by since we began; in other respects it has gone by somewhat slowly.

This week has been “interesting” to say the least. I have absolutely adored the “kindness” exercises and observations. It has struck me as quite remarkable as to what might be considered a kind act. Being kind can be so effortless. It requires so little effort and the consequences are so good for the soul. This is a lesson worth teaching.

As I read the current scroll in The Greatest Salesman, one quote in particular struck me immediately. It was, “I have been given eyes to see and a mind to think and I now know a great secret of life for I perceive, at last, that all my problems, discouragements, and heartaches are, in truth, great opportunities in disguise.” In the introduction to The Master Key – Part 16 this is reiterated in the introductions with ,”…a higher law will invariably control all other laws, and that through an understanding and conscious operation of spiritual laws, we can convert every seeming difficulty into a blessing.” A great friend pass away this week, and when I look at my heartaches and difficulties, my head can perhaps justify it as an opportunity or a blessing, but getting my heart to agree can be a challenge.

Life does go on…as do I!

Week 13 – I’m Back!

I am back “on the planet!” The two weeks of the Christmas break were a whirlwind. I was going nonstop trying to get everything done for everyone else, and I put myself on hold. I must admit, much as I hate to make (or hear) excuses, I discovered that sometimes life gets in the way, and unlike a few times in the past three months, I decided not to beat myself up over it. I definitely do better with a routine. I am still here and it is here that I intend to remain!

This adventure has sometimes felt like a rollercoaster ride. I felt very positive after reading Week 13, especially Section 26. For those who do not have access to the Master Key, the reading is as follows:

“But the thought must be clear cut, steady, fixed, definite, unchangeable; you cannot take one step forward and two steps backward, neither can you spend twenty or thirty years of your life building up negative conditions as the result of negative thoughts, and then expect to see them all melt away as the result of fifteen or twenty minutes of right thinking.”

For me, this suggested that I must be patient with the process and myself – not guilty!

I have enjoyed the “accomplishment” cards. What I did was to use four different pens (one blue, one green, one red, and one yellow) to write each card. It was fun reaching back into my past to see what I had done – events and accomplishments. I have packed a lot into all my years.

Week 14 is ahead of me. I will try to post again before this week is over so that I will be almost where I need to be.

Thank you for sharing the journey with me! It is definitely an adventure!

 

Week 11 – Onward!

I wrote my last blog on December 10. I was sad! It is now nine days later and I am definitely back on track, although I think that I am missing something. My blog is titled Week 11 and I am reading Week 12. Oh well…

I have decided that I work a whole lot better with a routine. I have been very good about setting the alarm, getting up early, doing my sitting, and doing the first read immediately. On the way to work I keep several of my promises. Once at work, I do the reading of the Master Key. Should I be nervous? I am on break for the next two weeks. I need to make sure that I am organized; otherwise, it may be easy to slip into some very bad habits!

I absolutely loved last Sunday’s webinar. I thoroughly enjoyed the idea of the “flashcards” and the 50 minute read of the single sentence DMP was a blast! I really felt like I was talking to someone else. I looked at myself closely and smiled a lot. It was almost like being interviewed. I also really enjoyed listening to the comments and reactions following the webinar. Jana Martinez was particularly moving.

I have the flashcards done. Colors were a bit of a challenge this past week, so I wrote my qualities and “things” in blue, green, red, and yellow. A friend sat at my desk when I was taking a break (working with a student) and wrote me a note with three qualities that she wanted me to add. Very special!

Family is my number one priority, especially my children. I will be flying to Portland, Oregon, to help move my daughter and her husband to Fort Collins, Colorado, where both she and he got phenomenal jobs; the older of my two boys just finished his first semester of “serious” study. He pulled a 4.0 GPA, and I am so proud. He and I are flying to San Francisco tomorrow to see the younger son perform/sing in a special performance with the San Francisco Symphony. My single sentence DMP makes reference to my children being fine…they are so fine!

So, on to keeping my promise for the week. I have to “find my desk” before I leave work today.

Until next week, onward!

Week 10 – So Sad Again!

I am feeling sad! As I am writing this, tears are in my eyes. I am having a difficult time. I have not been doing my Master Key with fidelity. This past weekend, I was at an international event for my business. The announcements that were made at that convention on the Saturday about some of the services coming in the very-near future were exactly what I wanted to hear! The lion versus the sheep analogy was a theme; sounds like Og’s Scroll III. A positive manifestation in the world without! Hurray! But then… Because I was out of town, I once again found myself sitting outside my comfort zone, in the lobby of a hotel listening to the live webcast. For some reason the audio during the webcast dropped more than it was on; because I left home on Thursday evening, I didn’t have the Week 11 notes which I typically print in order to follow along; I didn’t have the Week 9 Master Key; mental diet has flown by the wayside. Today is Wednesday, and I am struggling. My old “subby” has kicked in with full force. Yesterday, I received a lovely note and gift from Paul, my coach, with two gifts – a compass and a magnifying glass. How did you know? I must get back on track. I will get back on track. “I will hear not those who weep and complain,” (including myself), “I will avoid despair but if this disease of the mind should infect me then I will work on in despair,” “I will…keep mine eyes on the goals above my head, for I know that where dry desert ends, green grass grows.” I will live the scroll; “I will persist until I succeed!” I have come too far to turn back now. Onward!